Desert Rose

So before I roll, I'd better think twice. Here's my dilemma, I love him, do I take the chance? Should I  go for it, and just hope that I won't be let down? Or maybe I  should keep waiting with a spec of hope. coz if i make a move, I'm just afraid he'll say "nope"... Well nobody can decide but me , what must I do? Guess we'll find out, but right now i have no clue. 

At times when I’m angry, I wish I wasn’t here, I just wish I could chase away, all of my fears. At times I just want to die, Or wish I was never born, Because of the pain, the tears and scorn. At times when I’m happy, Which is pretty rare these days, My happiness chases the sorrows, but to some delay. For some unknown reason, It takes a while to smile, Maybe it is the discontent, distress and denial. But at times The pain is chased away, By the ones who will stay forever.