There are choices you make that put the well-being of your tribe first. You make an effort to persuade yourself that it will ultimately bring you happiness. But some days you see yourself holding on to words like “if”. There are some relationships in which you invest much more than you had anticipated. Later, you spend days building a narrative in your head about why things don’t look the same anymore , despite everything. There are those people for whom you made space with effort but then they got conditioned to it and stopped seeing beyond. You do everything you can to shift your perspective to “no expectations” but the mind resists. Viscous cycle or what? The last decade has been this for me – And, it has been going on long enough for my bones to feel it!