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I took another thoughtful drag
Thinking, "That's some dirty shit"
I don't know why it had to happen..
As soon as I light one up,
it is already time to quit.

Expectation and anticipation is all I have.
But yes, reality is nothing close to dream.
I made castles in my mind,
so knowing how it is going to be.
But an imagined deep-sea is only life's brook.

This is what I think.
It's not here. That is for sure.
As you stand before me,
I may merely seem like an image.
It seems like I only make you feel timid.

I ask myself every night.
Is there an end to this feeling.. pain..?
A vagrant cannot rest
or learn to be content
I know I can never pretend. And you do too.

Some days we have to be honest.
You know exactly how I feel.
But can you love a rock, 
Drifting towards an unseen sea?
Because soon I will fade from the scene.

Someday I might knock on your door.
Wondering if I was dreaming alone.
I have settled to suffer,
in return for my own life.
Because can someone ever take thy throne?

I am walking away, but with a heavy heart.
I still know I made no mistake
But is that really true?
For once it seems like,
Instead of giving,I can only take.


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