Desert Rose

It is strange how the things you planned with all your effort become a bundle of everything you either need to fix, let go or learn from. In my life, such orchestrated seasons have given me minimal victory and I saw my energy being dispersed than used.  I keep returning to a certain phase of my life for which I spent significant years planning and prepping. I imagined it to be the game changer - well, it did change the game, just not as per my plan! I can now see how when I got to the destination, I felt like I had landed and became complacent. Even better is how often complacency is topped up by distraction. It was a season made possible by my determination and planning but was tainted with privilege and distracted energy.  In the ongoing season, I again planned a course of action for myself. I saw that the course still took turns this time, but I glided by better.  It was a season once again made possible by my determination and future vision but I kept it open to every...

When days got closer to vacation in India or a trip, Mumma Lin usually went into severe planning and strategising mode. The key takeaway from her economic major, "maximum utilisation of available resources", blared louder than on regular days. She ensured that she ran the show with everything available until the departure and avoided "procurement" in the last week.  When the stock was minimal and other tasks were on priority, I always wanted to eat something that was not there at home. If I wanted a burji, there wouldn't be the egg. The potato wouldn't be there if I felt like having mumma's special potato korma. And if all the main ingredients were there - then onion wouldn't be there! After some discussions and convincing, I'd be on my way to my neighbour's home to pick up every missing part of my craving! These trips were wholesome in every way I can remember. Sometimes, you'd have to go to a couple of doors to ensure you have everythin...